Payphone...plans made for 2?

How I wish that I have someone that will hold my hand like in the dramas that I've watched...comfort me when I am down, hug me when he knows that a hug is all I need to brighten up my day. But then there is always that question that pops up... How do I know that I really like him or if he is the one? Wanna try to properly go out on a date and have fun but i guess the time has not come yet. Always afraid that I'm not ready but I keep on wanting someone who knows me for me. Understands me without having me to say so. God please help me to stop these feelings from overflowing. I keep having these feelings but I dont know where to direct them to. I hate this feeling!! I feel like an idiot. Help.... T_T Makes me Emo for no reason sometimes. Ugh. Am I some kind of teen who just reached puberty? I'm turning 21 soon for goodness sake and I still feel confused over this kind of stuff. Pathetic. Damn. 誰か、助けてください？