好累呀！

It's only the 4th week and I feel like I'm in the 8th week. Have been bombarded by assignments, test, and even more assignments since week 2. Waking up at 3am to make sushi for sale is really taking a toll on me. It feels like my head is gonna drop off any second. It is so difficult to maintain good academics while balancing it out with work.

Final year projects are coming up and now I'm really not sure if I did the right thing by accepting the job offer. This is making me feel so depressed. Feel like crying. But I'm in the library and that would attract alot of attention if I did that. AGRH!!!!! Need to release my stress! Now regretting having volunteered to be the team leader for FYP because I don't know if I am up for the tasks. I feel like a really lousy and useless leader. No time management, don't know how to delegate stuff. I feel like a hopeless blob of nothingness.

This throbbing pain in my head isn't helping the situation either. If I were Misaki, I don't think I'd have to face this kind of problems. Probably. Then again, Misaki does not exist in the real world. SO FRUSTRATING!!! GOD, please help me through these troubled times.

WHY DOES IT NOT FEEL ANY BETTER even after writing this down?? Usually I'd feel so much better after letting it out. 誰かたすけてください・・・　頭が痛い！　泣きたい！　やるべきことがたくさんあります。　も間に合わない！！

Early celebration + disaster

So I just came home from an early celebration with the gang for my 21 birthday. I'm supposed to feel happy but somehow I feel "heavy". I don't want to turn 21 yet because age comes with responsibilities.

Well that isn't why I wanted to blog. The main reason is cz of my BFF n his crush. Not sure if that is even the right term for her. Actually he was supposed to meet her at 10 but I didn't know. Sending me back, he told me about his plan and I saw the text she sent to him. Deep down I felt hurt because I pictured myself in his shoes. I don't know why but I feel really sad when I saw his expression even though I was just looking at him from the side...

So now you understand how I felt that time when I waited up for him till 1am, 2am for 2 nights. And you asked him to apologise for you. If you really were sorry, you could have FB msg me. You've only waited an hour and you're complaining? How can you send something like that to hurt him? It's not his fault anyways. I even apologised to you. So what? My birthday isn't as important as meeting you huh? He must prioritise you first?

I feel so frustrated. Stop acting like a spoilt brat. Just because you missed supper with friends doesn't mean that you can vent your anger at him. If it were up to me, I'd rather you not see him anymore at all. That way he can open his eyes and see that there are so many much better girls out there than you. For hurting him like that. Honestly, I hate you. I can't really say that to your face so I guess this'll have to do.

日常 Part 4

I didn't realise that it's gonna be a new year tomorrow at 12am. Time really flies. Next year, I'm going to be in my final year... I really hope the insurance industry will work out for me... If not I think I'm going to go and be a kindergarten teacher. Maybe in Japan. Haha...

Man... It's so hot and it's torture when I can't have cold drinks. =_= well...if its hot and it'll help me burn off some fat through sweating I'll endure it!! (For how long I don't know though...)

I think I'll go and buy the empty jar and the star paper for the new year. =) gonna write down every thing that made me happy in 2013!! =D

This post was supposed to be posted 3 days ago but I kept forgetting. So here it is... I'll probably post another one later or tomorrow... TTFN!