今はわかっている

今はちょっと君の感じをわかています。あの子は時々口が悪いね。むかしはそんな話はしていますけど、私何も誰にも言わなかった。とにかく、今私も君の感じをよくわかっています。 今はも寝ます。

Payphone...plans made for 2?

How I wish that I have someone that will hold my hand like in the dramas that I've watched...comfort me when I am down, hug me when he knows that a hug is all I need to brighten up my day. But then there is always that question that pops up... How do I know that I really like him or if he is the one? Wanna try to properly go out on a date and have fun but i guess the time has not come yet. Always afraid that I'm not ready but I keep on wanting someone who knows me for me. Understands me without having me to say so. God please help me to stop these feelings from overflowing. I keep having these feelings but I dont know where to direct them to. I hate this feeling!! I feel like an idiot. Help.... T_T Makes me Emo for no reason sometimes. Ugh. Am I some kind of teen who just reached puberty? I'm turning 21 soon for goodness sake and I still feel confused over this kind of stuff. Pathetic. Damn. 誰か、助けてください？

Desperate?

Love to watch all these romance animes and dramas from Japan and Korea. It makes me feel alive somehow but it also makes me feel lifeless sometimes. I keep hoping and telling myself that my prince would come one day soon but when it it gonna happen? I think I am really desperate. =X Why do I even feel this way? Because of my raging hormones? Or is it because I'm just jealous of my friends who have actually been in love or a relationship before? I don't even know how to define liking a person and I don't want something like the first time happening again . Maybe I'm destined to be alone...Sen at my work place I found that I'm not that socialiable compared to another colleague .

I want to take things slowly and let things unfold by themselves one at a time but I keep wanting everything to happen faster. I think I am really an impatient person.