It's a start

Remember I the time I would rant on about him and thinking that things would never go my way?

Well, today it did! Had a 3.30pm lecture and I slept till 12pm. I'm a pig. =_= Never mind that.

After I called my dad asking him to send me to school, I got a call from Jerome and he asked if I was free tonight? The drama gang was going for a movie and he was going. I didn't even asked my parents and I said yes.

Went there and was kinda late and the first person to see me was "him". I was actually apologizing for being late by using sign language but I think he thought I was waving because he waved at me. LOL. It was nothing really but way better than Harry Potter 7 because this time he was sitting 2 seats from my right. I could hear his voice and see his hands.(Don't know why but I recognized his hands when I saw them.)

The movie felt kinda long and after we finished the movie, every one went home. I'm glad I listened to Jerome because he asked me to park outside. I did and "he" was following Jerome's car home. Although it was just a really short walk to the car park, it made me happy(the feeling is hard to explain). I talked the most, ranting on and on, followed by Jerome's occasional laugh plus "his" silence. Finally, we part ways as I reached my car first. I said bye and Jerome replied the same. Then, "he" also said bye too! I turned to answer the same and I saw his smile. Almost melted! @_@ I said bye and when I got in the car I did a little squeal. I have no idea where that came from but it was all good.

Russ, you do give good advice. Get close to his friends. Lucky me because Jerome is already my friend. =P Like you said, this is a good start.

The Irony.

I think I'm going mad soon. Or maybe I already am. Geez~

Went to Uni as usual and when it ended, I was at block B waiting for my car. Two of my friends, Chloe and Kim came over and we chatted a while. I thought my mum was not coming so soon and we went to the cafeteria because Chloe wanted to grab something to eat. When we almost reached the cafeteria, I turned and said, "Please don't tell me I walked all the way here just to receive a phone call from my mum telling me that she's here." The 3 of us just laughed. As soon as I stepped out of Block G, my phone rang, and Chloe had a shocked expression when she said, "Don't tell me that's your mum?" AND guess what? It was! Exactly as I said. As I walked back to the main entrance, Kim said: "Angie, next time, don't jinx yourself!" Come to think of it, it was kinda funny.

Then I reached the outside of Block B where my car was waiting and when I was about to reach my car, another car stopped beside mine. I thought I was imagining stuff and it was HIM!! I actually deliberately put my backpack in the car first so I could buy a little time and somewhere in me I was hoping he would notice me. But... he didn't. ='( As I sat in the car, I actually took note of his car and the car plate number. =___= I am so sick! 4 numbers that are stuck in my head but I think I've jumbled them up...8497...Why?!

I did wish to at least see him once everyday but now I'm getting greedy.

This is so confusing!

Fate or Coincidence?

Last day of MPW and the commencement of degree. I'll just fast forward to the part where I was late for my supposed to be 2nd lecture but actually was my first because I had to skip the actual 1st lecture to sit for the Moral exam. LOL. That was a long and quite confusing sentence.

So, after the exam I went home and then I watched Bleach & One Piece. I even made a mental note so I'll get to Uni earlier. Apparently, even my brain too was hypnotized by the anime I was watching because it altered my eyes so when I looked at the clock, I saw that it was still way too early to go. Suddenly, my mum yelled and asked : "Ana! Lu bo tak chek hia???" I was so full of myself at the time and I answered : "4.30pm la!" She said: "Lu si siaw ha? Si diam pua chut liao!" And I was like OMG! So I rushed and my mum asked me to drive since it was just an hour lecture.

When I reached, I saw him! He had that cute expression on his face and for a moment there I thought he either recognized my car or actually saw me. I seriously thought of waving to him but luckily I caught myself before I did. It would be so embarrassing if I waved and he just frowned or if he did not see me. =___= Besides, I was too busy acting cool blasting music in the car. WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I WAVE??? IDIOT!? What's life without taking chances? I regret it so much now. ='( My hand was coming up but my brain was trying to control and stop my body from doing what it was doing by instinct. My brain won the war and left me regretting about it.

But, just getting a glimpse of him made my heart skip a beat and I smiled for no reason like an idiot after I took a right turning. I did not dare to even look at the rear view mirror because I think if I did, I'd have crashed into the signs and cones at the side of the road. Pitiful huh.

I did think of seeing him today since it is the commencement of degree but I tried to not put my hopes up because every time I do, I just get disappointed more. I wanna dedicate this song to anyone reading this and HIM... Though I know he won't be reading this.

Kimi Ni Todoke by May

Here's the link. I can't upload the video. =____=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEvX1EhBN0E&feature=related

Douka ima dake wa furimukanaide

Yuugure sawagu kaze fure sou na kyori

Kimi wo mitsumeteru zutto

Kimi ni todoke kimi ni todoke

Kanawanai koi de mo ii kizutsuite mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai

Kimi ga suki de kimi ga suki de

Nemurenai yoru demo ii

Asa ga konakute mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai kimi ni todoke

Kyou mo omoide ga hitotsu fueteku

Tame iki tame rai sae itoshii kurai

Kimi wo matte ita zutto

Kimi ni todoke kimi ni todoke

Kanawanai koi de mo ii

Kizutsuite mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai

Kimi ga suki de kimi ga suki de

Nemurenai yoru demo ii

Asa ga konakute mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai kimi ni todoke

Kimi ni todoke kimi ni todoke

Kanawanai koi de mo ii

Kizutsuite mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai

Kimi ga suki de kimi ga suki de

Nemurenai yoru demo ii

Asa ga konakute mo ii

Nan do demo tsutaetai kimi ni todoke

Translation

Please, just for now, please don't turn around

The evening, the rustling wind, the distance of us nearly touching
I could keep looking at you, forever
I'm reaching to you, I'm reaching to you
Even an unrequited love would be fine, to get hurt too would be fine
No matter how many times, I want to tell you
I like you, I like you
Even sleepless nights would be fine,

If morning didn't come it would be fine

No matter how many times, I want to tell you,

I'm reaching to you

Today too, my memories of you increase

Your sigh, even if it's only a hesitation, is still dear to me

I have waited for you, forever

I'm reaching to you, I'm reaching to you

Even an unrequited love would be fine,

To get hurt too would be fine

No matter how many times, I want to tell you

I like you, I like you

Even sleepless nights would be fine,

If morning didn't come it would be fine

No matter how many times, I want to tell you,

I'm reaching to you

I'm reaching to you, I'm reaching to you

Even an unrequited love would be fine,

To get hurt too would be fine

No matter how many times, I want to tell you

I like you, I like you

Even sleepless nights would be fine,

If morning didn't come it would be fine

No matter how many times, i want to tell you,

I'm reaching to you…

P.S :This was supposed to be posted yesterday, 21st of Feb but there was technical errors so here it is...

Gone Are The Days...

Just came back from the airport after sending my bestest best friend off. His original 6am flight was cancelled and replaced with a 5.30pm flight. And to think I only had 3 hours of sleep just to make sure I send him off. LOL. I've started to miss him already. You come back for 2 months and after I get use to you being here physically you got to leave again...Life kinda sucks when that happens. But we'll see each other again. Soon. I hope.

Thinking back, I miss those days when all of us would just sit in class and talk. We always have silly things and experiences to talk about and share with each other. Whenever we get together, we usually stray away from the main topic. From "where are are going this afternoon", we could end up talking about what someone else's dog likes to eat and still have no idea where to go in the afternoon. I'm gonna REALLY miss these times.

Wen says that she won't be able to go out anymore because of her STPM coming up and as for me, I guess you going away is kinda a good thing now because now I can seriously concentrate on my health plan!!! NO MORE outside foods! I'll replace my meals twice a day starting tomorrow! I've also got to start saving money so I can go to KL and work on that business opportunity that allows me to go to JAPAN!!! NIHON WO MATE KUDASAI!!! I pray that I'm gonna be someone new and better when you come back! Perhaps an Audi R8 or a BMW Z4?? Haha...

I'm so tired now...Guess I'll go for a nap...=D