It's been so long since I've blogged. Just felt like putting this in my blog cause I was kinda embarrassed when I wanted to say this in a conversation. I think I stopped blogging was because I was lazy and I kinda lost my purpose to blog. I started this blog with things I wanted to say to him and the memories I had of him. I guess when I blogged about it, it gives me a chance to relive the moment. Even if it was just a one - sided thing.
A week ago, I heard that they broke up but the next day they were acting like nothing happened. I was so tempted to ask her why he didn't show up at first but I'm glad I didn't. He appeared at the end of the session and the two of them was still as friendly with each other like always. Honestly, I wanted to know if they really broke up and stuff but I guess not knowing is better right?? Thank God I didn't ask.
I guess at times like this Korean dramas really helps. I don't know if my situation actually contributed to my addiction to Korean dramas but it traps me in an unreal world where I put myself in the shoes of the main female protagonist and lose my way of coming back to reality.
You know the only one thing I hate about watching this kind of drama even though I LOVE watching it?? Its making me feel as if something that happened to the heroine of the drama would actually happen to me. Like in BOF, Ji Hoo always appeared when Jan Di is sad and hurt. He is always there to comfort her. Makes me think how nice it would be if there was some one like that for me. It is kinda impossible for some one like me cause I'm so not the typical girl a guy would like.
I've always prepared myself with the thought that I'd be alone till I die. Haha. Seeing that my love life does kinda suck..okay, correction, It SUCKS. Alot. Haih. I dunno why Im suddenly so emotional. I hate this feeling. Why can't I just live life like it is? God help me. Relieve me of this feeling so I can feel alive again!
