Was stalking again...I'm really starting to think that I'm crazy. I know that he does not go online so often but I still take my chances to catch him online. Well...that didn't go so well. I should have taken up her offer for today's job. I guess crying over spilt potion isn't gonna be of any use but I need to say it to someone or express this feeling somewhere.
Recently, I feel that I've been relying on you too much and I think it must really hurt when you're pretending to be alright and giving advice when you aren't all right. That's why I'm trying to not bother you over really insignificant things like these by blogging rather than texting you. & I obviously can't text him either. I sometimes wonder if I was being insensitive when I keep telling you about him when you feel hurt over her. I'm sorry but I felt that I needed to tell someone and you were the one I was comfortable enough to talk about the subject.
Going back to the stalking, I saw some new photos uploaded and I decided to browse through. I would have actually meet him if I had taken up her offer!! ='(
AND to think i was the one who gave up that opportunity!!
I really want to know him better. He has NOTHING written in his info and he didn't even put his birthday! I've only dared to text him thrice. The 1st was using an excuse to say Happy New Year. The 2nd time was to ask about MPW by sending the message to two people so it wouldn't seem suspicious or weird I guess? And the 3rd one was to ask about degree results! (Not to mention that the alcohol that probably was still in my body helped to boost my courage) OMG! I feel so stupid right now. He probably thinks I'm some kind of a annoying and irritating freak who keeps texting him for no reason. Really, WHAT was I thinking?! I think I'm not that much of a friend to him that he would consider texting me for fun.
I should stop this but I just can't help it. ='C
God? Someone? Help me? Please??
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